'I concealed my pleasures' 'I stood already committed to a profound duplicity of life' 'severed in me provinces of good and ill which divide and compund man's dual nature' 'Though so profound a double-dealer, I was in no sense a hypocrite; both sides of me were in dead earnest' 'a second form none the less natural to me because they were the expression, and bore the stamp, of lower elements in my soul'